I'm scared.
Ever since I've been home, I've had one guy on my mind non-stop. The only guy I've ever loved, the only heart I've ever broken, the only spirit I've ever broken. In the past week I've had three dreams about him, and every second of every day, he is on my mind. I'm not exaggerating either. When I lived three states away, it was easy to forget about him and not worry about him at all. I just set my facebook to take away all the feeds about him, and he never crossed my mind! Now that I'm home, and I know he lives only 45 minutes away, and I may run into him at any given moment, I can't stop thinking about him. I am still very much in love with him, I just didn't see how we could ever have worked together. However, after being in the sea with all the other fishies, I can't seem to find anyone I think I could even begin to feel what I feel for him. And I realized that no matter how difficult things got with him, it was still SO easy because I wanted it SO much. It was so easy to put my heart on the line for him, because I was so very much in love with him.
I am scared I may never feel this way again.
Do I contact him? Or just leave it be?
These dreams MUST mean something.. Each one has been different, but with the same idea. In every one, I get really nervous when I see him, because I feel like he hates me, but then we end up talking just like nothing ever happened, like nothing changed.
Comments (4)
it seems like u have such strong feelings for him that you should definately give him a call!!
@chicagogirl - I'm just scared he won't want to talk to me!
@deadlyflirt - i completely understand! but i tihnk it's better just trying to get a hold of him, then not at all, cuz he may start to come around. do u think he still has feelings for u?
@chicagogirl - I have absolutely no idea!